You know how it goes - too many unknowns. Any relationship is risky, but I cannot live without them. What I'm looking for from her would probably be defined by most people as a very close friend. To me, that's just a decent friend. My idea of a close friendship is almost like a significant other, just with several components missing. I wish I could find one of those, but it's not a position most people would be satisfied with. My problem with close friends is that they tend to fall in love with me, but when I won't be "with" them, they get angry and leave. (Not to mention the challenges of dealing with me.) Even knowing their role and place in my life. So, I'll have to hope I can at least get a decent friend.