Okay, I hear you. You feel hardly functional now. You are different than you were a week ago. You can do the bare minimum. You are terrified. Could these feelings be related to stopping meds ? Yes, perhaps. Could these feelings have to do with a specific diagnosis ? Again, yes, perhaps. I am not a Doctor and it is not my place to guess at what is causing what. But, YOU might be able to coordinate with the right professionals and figure out what is really going on. You might feel panic and desperate and stuck. I don't know- those are my words. But I believe ( and this is only a guess, take it or leave it) that your feelings and this state will pass. Yes, it must be uncomfortable, but right now there is no reason ( besides fear) to believe you will be like this for the rest of your life. Your kids have not lost their mother. You will feel better. Of course, you can challenge me on these statements. I don't know you but what is true is that I have been there and it did get better for me after I sorted out the meds and agreed with my pdoc and T on the diagnosis and treatment that made the most sense to me. Even though I thought I was a bad mom, when my thoughts cleared, I realized that by taking care of me, I was taking care of her. Even during the darkest days of my depression, people compliment me on my mothering skills. Strange, I know, and I had a hard time believing but in the end I trusted others and that helped me start to trust myself. I really believe you will get and feel better but I don't want to disrespect your feelings by overlooking them. Yes, it feels bad. That is real. I am not here to change you. I am here to support you. So, I'm really really sorry you feel this way. I hope you feel better soon.

All my best-
Daze