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Originally Posted by farmergirl
I know it is hard to think logically in situations where we feel we have exposed our hearts. Your T is trying to pull you into a weekly schedule. He has told you he is trying, but nothing has opened up. He can't just knock someone of the schedule and put you in their time slot. Logically you know that. If maybe a brief phone session in between would be helpful, ask him if that might be a possibility. You will only know if you ask. Don't wait for him to suggest it as some kind of proof that he finds you important. Find yourself important enough to ask for what you need. And don't come back with I asked for once a week appointments and he didn't do that for me. Because logically you know his answer was not no; he is still trying to work that out.
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farmergirl, I am trying to think logically about this and it is so HARD to hold onto the logical part. T knows I am hurting. Sometimes, when hurt is there, it is difficult to think logically. It's why I go to T. When I can't sort through it and see that what I really need is to connect with T in SOME (any) way, when I can't figure that out for myself enough to ask for more than to meet weekly...isn't that why he get paid? I guess my question is there hope for this therapy without PC to help me work through this because T isn't really helpful?
His email response last week really felt like a carrot on a stick. Just enough to (hopefully) keep me from walking away but not enough to help me through it. On the contrary, it reminded me how AWFUL I feel. Alone. Guilty. I don't need "proof", I need understanding.