You've been given good advice already. Going off your meds would most likely set your mind off. It's funny you say you'd rather be manic, but when you're manic, you'd probably want to be depressed.

Anyhow, you don't want to do anything dramatic because you might feel pretty damn good at first. That might turn into full blow euphoria if you're lucky. But then you'll drop, your cycling will become more intense, and your mind may be too much to handle.

The worst part about really delving deep into the insanity is the fact that you may get caught up in it, meaning it will be your new reality so to speak.