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Originally Posted by LydiaB
lydia do something for me.... think about your posting here... what if someone told you.. I dont believe what you just posted, you cant have that because of this that and the other thing... you believe what you posted is real but others may not...how would that make you feel.. would that cause you more mental stress or less mental stress if someone was putting you in your place because they didnt believe you...
But that's exactly what happened to me. They called me a liar. I knew before they knew that others existed. I tried telling them and they told me "You know *Amy? She's told you she has DID, she has DID. You don't." I was the liar. Not her.
It's not the label I wanted. It was mostly them that wanted acknowledged and I got REALLY sick when everyone called me a liar. I have never been that sick in my life. I couldn't shower. I couldn't leave my home. I was consistently suicidal. I thought I was going crazy. I was one step away from killing myself. When they denied them, so did I. I don't know if you remember what it's like to not acknowledge them yourself, but it's sickening.
Because of her lies, I was told I was a liar. They weren't treating her symptoms at all. If they were they would be trying to get at the reason behind why she was lying and fix that.
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like I said I am sorry that happened to you. But I can also see the other side of the situation too. maybe you can contact those treatment providers and ask them why they compared you to that other person, maybe they were told to do that for a reason... for example sometimes treatment providers here point out another client as an example to see whether the client will change their symptoms, behavior to that of the example, to find out how susceptible the client is to suggestions. just an idea. Im trying to find ways to make this situation easier for you so that you dont let it derail you and all the progress you have made. sometimes ruminating or obsessing on an issue can be a cover up for not wanting to address other issues, or it can be where a person can ruminate or obsess on something to the point of where it causes them to sink into depression or makes their other symptoms worse. theres a book I read somewhere I forget the name of it but it was about how the brain and what you think about can change the pathways in your brain.. the more you ruminate on the negative the more negative reaction pathways you create for yourself. example think about something that has not happened but is sad and your mood will change, the more you do that the more you sink into depression. it works with all emotions. the more you ruminate on things that make you angry the more anger triggered pathways you will have in your brain. the trick to a healthy brain is knowing when its time for you to let go of a triggering issue and move on to other things.
yes this was a horrible situation. no one other than the treatment providers that did this knows why it happened.
you cant go back and have then treat you differently.
all we can do is tell you we are sorry that it happened, tell you our opinions about how such a thing happens in our locations.
but only you can -
self sooth,
self nurture,
make it so that you can move on beyond this,
only you can decide whether you are going to let this -
hold you captive in thoughts about it
take you down,
learn what ever you need to from it,
or bring yourself back out of it.
Again Im sorry that happened to you.