I have a lot of dialoge in my head... The difference is who's dialoge is it?

If it is only mine then I am considered to be doing good (normal)
as the medical profession see it.

If It is someone else's dialoge going on in my head then I am suffering the symptoms of my illness.

And then there are the outside dialoges (those I hear but no one eles does) This is my illness in full force as they would say.

But I know that it is not my mind but the world and the evil in it that is entraping me where I do not long to sojourne.

It is determined by the medical profession as to how to treat these things...Not me, becasue I am not of sound mind to make such determinations. This is what I am told.

So I encounter oposition becasue of my choice to not be medicated for these things.

It is only when I becaome a danger to my self because of the evil one, that I surcume to their wishes and take the drugs in which they say will benifit me. But I then become their droid.

So with what strength I can gather I retreat to the one who truly gives me peace from this vielness that fills me. And I do find the peace that I desire. Knowing that it is He who has brought me back to my sanity in Him. For the world sees me as a fool, as insain, being out of my mind, but I know that I would rather be insain in Him then sain in this world.