I guess I was telling some of you of the time I checked ino the hsopital. I found out that they had checked me into a "locked" ward. When I asked where was the policy that says that I have to be placed in a locked in orrder to get into the open word. They said it was their "profesional judgment." I said no to that and prepared to eave. They did put me in an open ward and boy did the abuse start. Lying to me, refusing me treament until I insisted that a doctor be caled. Even yelling at you telling you what a bad patient you. And all the little gmes they play like ignoring you or "forgetting things. I go so down I coudnt top crying or even defend mysef. One nurse checke me in as Major depresive psychotic and signed her name.

I wen to the director again and it just got worse. All I can do is cry. I just can't stop it. Iam realy losing my self esteem and etting more depressed. I need a should so so bad. I'm just so beat down I can;'t stop crying. And who has the stength to stop crying on top of the depression.

I discharged myself from the hospital and now have to go back to a day program. What they have as an "advocate" is NOT. Please support. I can't even get mysef together much stick up for my self.

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