Idk, if it's mania...I want to control it, but I don't want to have to keep "setting unrealstic goals". I have never fit into society's mold, I have always been the black sheep in my family and at school. I want to be eccentric and live the creative side of the eccentric lifestyle. I don't want to fit in a box...I see life in a different view and I want to portray that view.

idk how to do that without having to keep questioning my "sanity" or have other people question me....