I think you have made a great discovery in your journey to understand yourself. For me pain had come such a part of my daily life that it felt like something was wrong if I did not feel sad about something. I really have had to make a conscious effort to try and break the cycle. I still feel that way sometimes and I often over react emotionally to negative people or influences in my life. Yet when we know about ourselves we have a hope of overcoming the things that constrict our lives. I wish you well Hugs and love -- Larissa