It was embarrassing when I admitted I wanted T to be my mom and that I wanted her to cradle me like a child. She handled it well; she told me, "I'm sorry, but I can't be your mom. There's nothing wrong with what you want, though. In the therapy process, I can't hold or comfort you."

It was also very embarrassing to admit I used to SI...by banging my head (against a wall, with my hands, etc.). She said we all do things to SI sometimes, but she was glad I'd stopped hitting my head (now 6 years bang-free ). So even though it's slightly triggering, I still use this smiley: