WePow,
I don't know you very well and I didn't know your backstory until now. I'm really sorry that you had to go through this.
I don't know if I can say anything that can help you either, but I want you to know that you're very much loved and appreciated here. You're definitely good enough for us. Please stay safe and keep posting if it helps. Safe hugs if they're okay.
I really wish I had something better to say.