I have suffered with anorexia as well. I agree that you should find someone to talk to about it. If not a therapist, at least a friend or your boyfriend. I know for me it helps to have my best friend there. Anytime Ana's voice is getting strong I text him explaining why, he talks me through it without judging me. If I slip up and tell him he simply tells me he doesn't want to see me suffer. It may help to talk to a friend who has it as well. My best friend has suffered with it and received treatment, so he knows what it is like.