You are throwing the baby out with the bathwater! All you need is a dosage adjustment! At the most an additional or replacement med. You've got yourself so locked into this "oncoming depression, I can't take it" mode that you are setting yourself up for defeat at an even worse level than you could possibly imagine. Take the d*** meds, call your pdoc - and keep calling until you get a reply.

Harsh, yes, but it's something you need to hear.