thanks Doc. maybe we can.

I too also had a very domineering father. i know that a lot of my nervous tension comes from being conditioned around him growing up. i still feel nervous around him to this day. not that i am afraid of him, its just that ive never asserted myself around him because of his volatile nature.

I am interested about what you said about "outcome" and how that has changed in your view on religion. I was raised Christian and still do enjoy goin to church, i find it though that all of the head games of trying to figure out God's will, and what He wants for my life leaves me very powerless and in fear of missing something.

Do you ever feel guilty being yourself, like lets say you could just start with a clean slate and makes choices that are uniquely you, no matter how scary that might be? I know that has a lot to do with my anxiety, always feeeling guilty for some reason. makes me want to scream.