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Originally Posted by Shayatanica
Yeah, men just process things differently. Couple that with mental disorders & it can get kind of crazy. Not entirely bad, but it can take some chiselling to get to the surface. If I'm going to be with someone, I need to crack them all the way down to their core. I'm a bit on the intense side. So it can be difficult to see eye to eye, even despite the fact that I process things differently than most girls anyway. My last actual relationship was 3.5 years. He was really emotionally sensitive, but acted like he wasn't so he had this big "bad boy" facade. Would flirt with other girls to get attention, would never give me my due appreciation, & refused to take anything seriously because it was too much for him... *shakes head* But... It varies from person to person. If you want a relationship again, best of luck, if not, can't blame you.
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I don't even feel like I know someone until we have a nice long deep discussion. I like to know everything, morals, values, ethics, opinions, family, upbringing, etc. I don't like to talk about myself. I might say I liked to skateboard or play drums and tell them that's what I did my whole life. haha, which isn't a total lie.. but.. as if I'm going to tell them EVERYTHING!
Uhm.. I can fake love and stuff. I got that down, even the fake tears at times. I don't even realize how manipulative I am, and I don't even try. it's like a survival thing. manipulate and control.
anyways.. as I go off on a tangent and space out. Uhm.. yeah. I don't care whether I ever date another person again or not. I don't even care about sex. I can do that myself, and don't even have to buy myself lunch. But.... I know I will end up in another relationship, it just happens. Girls like me because I'm a complete asshole. I don't know why they prefer assholes.
I don't even know where I'm going with this. So I'm going to stop rambling.