(((ColourBars)))

I know exactly what you're talking about. My thoughts go the same way (about being a waste of space and of treatment).

We're human beings. No one deserves to live a life of misery. Those who are miserable shouldn't be exterminated. They should be helped through their illness/es to live a healthy existence. That is what most of humanity believes in ~ Therefore, we should receive help to get us through our misery as well. Right?

Please do see your doctor, and talk about these feelings that you've been fighting. I'd recommend getting in to work with a therapist regularly. Gentle hugs and very best wishes to you!