(((Femmefire))) Try and hold in there as long as you can. We all care about you and we all want you to be safe. You can and will get through this.

Try looking around for other appointments. You might have to start with a new T, but it might be worth it. I know I could get a T appointment in a week with my old T, so maybe your T is just unavailable and it's time to find a new one. I think it's highly inappropriate for someone to sluff off someone at risk of sui, and I don't think you're going to run into it again. If you do... well... then I've lost faith in humanity.

Last thing. If it does get bad enough, do go to the ER. I know you were mistreated there before, but you might have better luck this time, and if you are seriously considering killing yourself, its better than dyeing. (Even if you don't see it that way).

We love you and are here for you femmefire. Best of luck.