I know that sounds ridiculous... but in context I thought it was a catchy title.
(likely not that triggering, but I put the symbol on there just in case)

I haven't been doing well. I have done nothing but watch TV (mostly Stargate SG1, but 2 movies as well yesterday) for 3 or 4 days strait now. I have blown off all other appointment, haven't showered, and only get up to pee or grab food (not very much I might add). I just upped my dose of lithium to 450 (just starting) and I believe I am dehydrated and have starved myself for 2 possibly 3 days. I've felt sick, lethargic, and miserable the whole time.

I realized yesterday that every time I watch something happy I get upset by it. Every time I watch something sad it doesn't phase me. And now I'm noticing that I can't watch SG1 without reading what happens in the episode before hand, and reading ahead of the suspense. I can't even watch a basic episode. It's taking me hours of pausing, freaking out/emotional outburst, then play for a few more moments, to get through 1 episode with a lot of suspense in it. Even though I know what happens. I am completely unable to handle the emotion that comes with suspense, to the point of physical pain and emotional outbursts.

Any comments?