I don't know why, but your post is bringing tears, sawe. Good tears! Thank you. I think I get so little good validation in my real life it's just good to hear it. Thank you.

I don't think I am brave. I am feeling vulnerable and unsure, and messed up, and afraid. I want that journal back. I need to trust her with it but I don't and I'm scared. What if she reads it more in depth and decides she hates me or can't handle it or she's disgusted by me.

I'm trying to take care of myself tonight. I went for a run this afternoon and that was a very good thing to do. It helped a lot.