Yeah, if circumstances don't facilitate being able to work on yourself, the pdoc is the way to go in my opinion. If you WEREN'T bogged down with stress, I'd suggest a little more persistence... But it doesn't really appear that you have a choice. Good luck, though!! And try to take some time out for yourself. Some mental relief. Even just isolating yourself to listen to zentastic music or some form of expression for 15 minutes. : )