Wow (((((osburnjody))))) Sounds like there is no place left to go but up. I don't have bipolar disorder but I do struggle with PTSD and can relate to my world crashing down and my family members deserting me, even the poor care in the hospital, I can relate to that too.

Well, it sounds like you got rid of the people who didn't care enough sorry that you went through that too. But now that they are gone you can work on you. You DID have a career and you CAN have it again and you CAN be strong again and even get yourself involved with better people.

Switch had a good idea about finding a support group. Also are you seeing a therapist? Switch is right also in saying try to not stay locked up. Is there a local church you can get involved with? Maybe learn how to smile for a while without showing teeth? I had to do that too so I understand.

If you can now manage it, please try to get some exercise in, cant think right when your not in motion you know. Exercise does help a lot. And with that A type personality a good exercise routine, even if it is just going for long walks can be very helpful, yes you definitely need to do something productive and goal oriented. That A type personality can help you, utilize it if you can by making reasonable goals and climb out of this sad state of affairs. You already know you can do it as you have done it before.

Welcome to PC, I hope I have helped a little. I hear you, life can be a challenge sometimes that is for sure.

((((Hugs)))))
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