I don't know.... I like to hold close the line "You pay your therapist to listen, but you don't pay them to care." I know that all of my therapists provide a service to me because I pay them to do so. But none of them are paid to care, and in particular with this T, she wasn't paid to read and reply to my emails. The fact that I dropped this T with no notice, no explanation, and no respectful anything, is not exactly something I am proud of. Yes, I was angry with her and didn't want to tell her because I thought I would hurt her feelings, so I just left instead.

Now that I know better, I do want to apologize. I don't want anything else from her - not like I want to go back and have a closure session or anything, I just want to apologize for my actions. I wouldn't expect a reply back, either. As a friend says, keep your side of the street clean. I feel like apologizing is the only way I can do that, and finally bring closure to something that has been on my mind for a few years now.