I don't know. 4 months ago I attributed all my behavior, thoughts, and all craziness to being ADHD even though it didn't make sense.

Maybe I'm not a sociopath or a psychopath. maybe I'm just bipolar, and am manic, and forgot to take my meds (which I did).

Part of me wants to say "Hey, this is my thread, and if you don't like the contents, no one is forcing you to read it." I understand how curiosity works. I was really kinda hoping some other person with ASPD could tell me if my list was correct or not, because that was just a list of a few things in my life that I've done, or thought, or whatever.

All I'm really sure about, is that I'm never happy, and never have been, and I want to know why. why can't I just be content? why can't I just "be". Maybe all I want is attention. Maybe I just feel like being an asshole. Maybe I want to see how people respond to potentially triggering phrases and sentences. Perhaps this is my way of getting to know how people REALLY are.

I don't know.

*and I don't condone violence at all. I'm simply saying that that's the kinda stuff I do, or think about.. and that was before my diagnosis of bipolar, when I still thought I was just deficit of attention and hyperactive.