Guess there's a bit of that going around.

During a conversation about being upset that a friend thought I was odd, my T indirectly told me she thinks I'm odd. Then says "I thought you took pride in being odd." Smooth. I didn't know that I was odd. Apparently, I am. The good news is that T reassured me that I don't LOOK odd. That was therapeutic.

Then, same session, I was talking about the PBS program This Emotional Life and said that I watched it but skipped the last episode, which is about happiness. T says this begs the question "don't you want to be happy?" ... In my best restrained anger, carefully chosen words manner I told her that I would question my desire for happiness if I thought I wasn't working towards happiness... but since the reality is that I've spent the last year in recovery from my alcoholism, quitting smoking, learning how to exercise and eat better, and going to therapy and meetings every week, (not to mention maintaining a respectable gpa in school while searching endlessly for a full time job) it was safe to say that I was trying pretty damn hard to put myself in a position to be happy. To which she responded "You don't think there's anything else you can do?" .... "Like go for a walk or meditate?" I replied (her two go to responses to stress).

I was/am very angry. I feel like she doesn't understand me. This is all happening within weeks of a conversation about how I don't feel I can trust her. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done!!!

It was all I could do to not tell her off. Instead, I left her a surprisingly non-scathing voice-mail telling her that I no longer want therapy and to cancel my appointment.

I feel relieved that I don't have to go back, but I also feel disappointed and hurt that we've been working together for 14 months and we just don't seem to click.

And now I'm getting pissed that she's not contacting me. I don't even want her to contact me, I'm just being a child.

I don't think there's anything anyone can do.. I just need to vent. Thank you guys.