Thank you all so much! I'm taking a little time out before trying again. It shook me more than I realized. Waking up from anxiety attacks, obsessing about it etc. None of which I can stop (not for a lack of trying!). I'm busy with a list of possible things I can do. My sister in law is tweaking my resume, cause I can't sell myself. I will keep you in the loop. I am still amazed at the support people give on this site! Thanx!