hi, tear drop. i suffer from PTSD. yes, i would define it as a mental illness. PTSD is a lot more than mixed feelings because, unlike some feelings, it usually does not go away on its own. i am having a very difficult time dealing with my PTSD. discussions over its classification have no business in this thread; the thread is yours and about your issues. without taking sides, i am sorry that it includes this extraneous debate because it is taking the emphasis off of you. if you suffer from PTSD, please seek treatment from a qualified professional T. i wish you the all the best!