hi there. i really need some help as i've just had my fourth session with my university psychiatrist, and our session has taken on a entirely new vibe. he is a very friendly, smart and sweet man, however, i noticed a few things during our third session that caused me to feel intense erotic transference for him after we had finished. I had had no feelings whatsoever before out third session, but during it I decided to recount to him how I'd become paranoid that my father had sexual feelings towards me as a child. He then spent the rest of the session asking me about my sex life, balanced with alot of good helpful analysis. I am a bit worried as I am a model and when I smiled at him during this session, he seems a bit all over the place and looked away, and after that seemed to take a shining to me! In our fourth session, he swanned to his chair rather lovesick, lovingly announcing 'and here we are again!', to the point where it was just overpowering and I could barely look him in the face. I find him very helpful and it might just be his manner, but is there a chance he's becoming a bit lovesick? I know I am, and I keep smiling at him because I can't stop feeling flustered in his presence anymore! He was quite abrupt balanced with natural sweetness and kindness in our first two sessions, and I would say hes eccentric, but it now seems very personal and strong like hes come alive. I am 21, he is mid forties but I am very attracted. He also slipped out that he likes my smile, then said laugh, to talk about why I might be laughing during our sessions as past of my way of dealing with my emotions. He keeps things professional in his discussion, but his tone and the way he was so dreamful and adoring in his voice makes me feel very confused! He is, I think, quite eccentric and jolly though impatient, is this just his personality? Please help anyone!
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