I have been seeing a nutritionist for my ED and was doing really good for a few weeks- eating everyday and feeling good about it. Then, i noticed I had gained about 4 lbs (went from 104-108 and Im 5'6") I have heard I need to gain but I hate the way i look even more. i can feel the fat on my body and when i think about it my heart races and i get so upset. I can literally FEEL the pounds- makes my stomach sick- I skipped my nutritionist appointment yesterday b/c i dont want her to know how i feel- what a waste of time this has been. nothing seems to help. I just want to break all the mirrors so i cant see myself and hope that nobody will see me. Sorry guys...bad week!