After my hard but decent session yesterday, I was taken aback by something this morning. I sent this email (we did not discuss email parameters yesterday):

I realize I should have asked this yesterday; I had it written down to ask, but we never got to my journal. I am going to be alone this weekend; Jeff is working, Angie and Nathan are out of town, and Mel can't help me right now. Add to that the stress of being on-call for work and processing session yesterday, I'm afraid of going to a dark place.

May I email you as I process so I feel I'm connected to someone? Will you read? I will not expect any replies. If you tell me no, I respect and accept that. I trust that you will decide based on what is in my best interest.

I care about you and I genuinely felt bad when you said my clinginess made you feel uncomfortable. I have little concept of boundaries, so it's a small step, but a step nonetheless. When you told me you made yourself uncomfortable because you thought it was what was best for me, it simultaneously warmed and broke my heart. Right or wrong, I don't think I'm worth that kind of sacrifice. It was one of those moments similar to when you told me I was worth more than the risks.

Her exact response from start to finish: No emails

WTF??!! Not "I don't think it's in your best interest for you to email me" or I'm sorry, but I have to say no"

Is it her or me? Is she being a b i t c h or am I reacting too much?