Wow, thanks for all the replies!! I've tried so hard to be normal, hobbies, and trying to socialize, its just not in me. I do well at work, for a period of time, I can usually last at least a year. People really like me there, and , I wonder why? I am generally a nice person, but, we all have are moments! I guess I just feel fake. I want to come out of the box for a while, live the real life , ya know? Thanks for all your replies, they were wonderful, as usual!!