she's been in DBT way longer than me... she pulls this kinda **** and everyone comes running. if I did that you'd be so mad and disappointed and you'd tell me straight to my face. I know she's in a different DBT program but still? she's my friend but I can't deal with this ****. it's pushing me too far right now. and I can't tell you because you'll just tell me to be non judgemental which I'm trying but it's not that simple.

and you've told me before that to come to DBT sessions at the centre I can't be in hospital and just on leave I have to actually be discharged. why can the new girl come then? she's in hospital and just taking leave to come. how is that fair?

DBT is f***** seriously why do the rules only apply to me?

I can't bring any of this up with you because you'll judge me and think I'm being an attention seeker. this is what stopped me from being honest last session.

I am so mad at you right now, well maybe a bit at you and the rest at the program.

I want to quit. tomorrow/today is the weekend so I can't call to quit.

I just don't f****** get it why do I have such f******* high standards put on me? why aren't I allowed to mess up?

the urges are so f******* high. I'm going to go back to sleep now but if I get a chance tomorrow then that's it. I don't f****** care anymore.