I hate that im sick. I hate that i can't get appropriate help for being sick. I hate that im not stable enough to hold down a job. I hate that i barely have enough money to get by let alone improve my situation. I hate that despite all this i put effort into helping others and get it thrown back in my face. I hate that im not able to resolve everything myself because that would be easier than trying to get people who don't even care enough to listen to assist you. I hate that after everything they have done to me i now feel nothing towards anyone in my family. I hate how others treat my sexuality. I hate every fibre of my being. I hate that im filled with so much hatred. I hate that i am still here.

Just felt the urge to put it out there...not looking for sympathy or ideas on how i can improve things