Anika, Do you ever people watch? It could be as simple as living as they do, normally. Or, it could be the extreme, which I prefer, living on the edge, day by day. I've often thought of just leaving, and ending up wherever I end up. I was homeless from 13yrs, until I was 22. Medication puts me in the box, its a safe box, usually. Who wants to be safe all the time? I'm older now, so, I need to be safer. It really sucks! Hope I'm not rambling?