Yup I understand, homeless from 14 to 20 yrs old myself. It was a huge adjustment that took years.

Maybe there is something you could do to get the risk feeling, but still being relatively safe? Rock climbing, stuff like that? Even when I go snowboarding or ride my bmx I get that feeling. I'll try to think of some that are not sports related tho, there must be some.

I was just thinking... Learn how to make sushi, there's gotta be risk in that, that you might get food poisoning. That's not a good idea I don't think haha. Don't do that.