I honestly don't know what my problem is. I've always been a kind person, and I hate seeing other people suffer. I always want to help people when I can, and make their lives easier. So why do I get so angry and so mean to my family? I don't understand. It's like I become a different person and if I could control my actions I wouldn't even care enough to do so. It's like I'm this emotionless person that doesn't care if I hurt someone's feelings or not. And if you knew me, you'd know that that's definitely not who I normally am.

I hate myself more than anything in this world. I hate my personality. I hate how I look. I hate myself in every possible way. So add this to that, and imagine how much I despise myself. Part of me just thinks "I'm only a teenager, why should I have to be dealing with all of this," and the other part of me thinks that there isn't anything wrong with me, and I'm just a heartless *****.

I don't know what to do. I wish I wasn't who I am...