((((((((((((fires1))))))))))) the gentlest of hugs to you. Please don't keep all this bottled up inside someone here will understand and listen... I have fought depression myself for over 30 years now so I know where you are coming from.....that shattered piece of mind is so hard to put back together again I know, but it can be done with friends who care and knowledge of yourself... Take care and if you would like to chat pm me anytime I am on... Linda