Perna, your post has helped me feel much better about my desire. Thank you for being so open about your experience. It helped me!

SpiritRunner, my heart breaks that you had to go through that with your first T. I guess I can be grateful that T expressed that she still wants to hug me; she just feels the therapeutic relationship is not the place for long embraces. She might be right.

I know I need to learn how to love myself, but that's what I was hoping T would help me with. However, it is probably like my second T told me, "You are going to do all the work. I am going to support you while you do that work." Sometimes I do miss T2; she was a sweetheart, but I need a different kind of therapy than what she practices.