I think you CAN become healthy without the aid of meds and therapy. It just take serious willpower.
I had an extreme irrational fear of germs. It was bad enough for I could have brought it up in therapy if I wanted to. Idk if it was bad enough for meds, but it was bad. I don't know why I was so scared of germs--as a kid I used to go dumpster diving--but something snapped and I couldn't touch anything that I deemed "dirty" like desks, doorknobs, shoes, garbage cans... I carried hand sanitizer in my pocket at school that I used them up in a day and I would wash my hands like a surgeon. I tried taking care of a pet snake, but I so scared of touching it that I had to shower even if I just touched the cage on accident. Eventually, and I can't exactly pinpoint when, but within the last three years I decided that enough was enough. I forced myself to touch things I thought were dirty. At first, it freaked me out to do it and I had to wash my hands, use hand sanitizer, and then shower afterwards. Eventually, the more I touched those things, I stopped showering and just washed my hands and used hand sanitizer. Then I tried to focus on not washing my hands like a surgeon, so now I only wash my hands and wrists and I'm not scrubbing. There are still things I can't bring myself to do, like taking out the trash, and I until I'm married I can't handle owning a dog because I'm too afraid to pick up after it, but I have come a long way from being scared of touching anything. I wouldn't even consider myself afraid of germs anymore, now it's just specific things I can't touch.
That is just a fear of germs. I have also made a nearly complete recovery of bipolar disorder. Long story short I had a manic episode during school which lead to dx, I came out of the hospital as a zombie from being overly medicated, my parents thought I wasn't going to be able to graduate so I forced myself to complete all my missing homework and within a month I was back in school and graduated on time while working with my doctor to have my meds reduced. If I didn't care about school and graduating with my class, I wouldn't be where I am today.
I want to be healthy and med free, so for the past year and two months I have been patiently working with my doctor to slowly reduce the meds. My goal is to be off them within 6 months more or less.
Most people are not that lucky. Most people do not have the willpower to do exactly what the doctor says, and most people don't do well in therapy. I think if you truly want to be healthy, you would do whatever it takes. For you, professional therapy is not the answer. Find another therapeutic tool you can use: cooking, art, therapy dogs, exercise. Essentially, you need to do what makes you happy and feel healthy. Therapy didn't make me happy, so I stopped going and I took up different hobbies as an outlet. This is just me, but I believe that you can achieve whatever you set your mind to if you have the willpower to do it.
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