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Originally Posted by LydiaB
Hmm I'm a little skeptical. I may have alters who reach out for help, but there are twice as many pulling the blinds shut. You have to remember not everyone with DID is the same. So we don't all have parts that reach out for attention. We don't all switch easily or do things illegal. I have a protector whom takes over if anything bad starts to happen. Like Drinking, stealing, etc. If we all switched so drastically my DID would have been diagnosed years ago. My entire nature of the illness is to cover it up and in turn you're covering up the abuse. You spend more time covering it up for yourself, then anyone else.
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I have a similar experience. I never wanted to be noticed. If I got noticed something bad happened so I hid a lot. Even now I hide a lot. The only time anyone sees a big change in me is if I become angry. And if I become rage-full I become someone else totally. I actually feel like I am bigger and stronger if I feel rage full. I am known to be a certain way by different groups of people. So my co workers know me one way and my family knows me another way and my long time friends know me another and my more recent friends know me to be still another way. I try never to mix the groups. Sometimes paths cross and I freak out in my head. Most time I will introduce them and find a reason to get going. It would be impossible to interact with both friends because they know me to be a certain way. So who would I be. Anyway I am glad you responded to this post. It made me feel ok.