I have no intention of letting anyone know about my self harm ever! Apart from my psychologist. It's just too much, too private, and I have a hard time opening up, because yes, yes I think they wouldn't like me and yes I am terrified that once I let someone close they will leave and I know I cannot bear it. Last time it happened was four years ago and I'm still not over it!
But I realize I have to get out of this mindset, but I think I need clear step by step instructions, because I don't WANT to get out, but I should.
Thank you so much for taking the time to help, you're great