And I told the hard truth, everything I've been trying to avoid. I need to deal with my emotions. I am the strong one, push hard things away, only to realize I can't get over them. Had too much pain continually in my life, it was the only way I could cope without falling apart. He pushes my buttons continually, if I say something makes me sad, I am forced to dwell on it before I can dismiss it. And no matter how much I feel like crying in those moments, I can't. I end up sitting there silent, shrugging my shoulders, waiting to move on to the next topic. So I basically committed to more of the same awkwardness, but I need to find a way to allow my emotions to come out so I can work through these issues. I want help but it's so hard to force myself to receive it. Any suggestions?