I feel like I am on a roller coaster. I am overly tired but yety cant sleep... so confused, tonight i am laying in bed not able to sleep knowing i need to and just want the pain to end. Not just the physical but the mental too....I hope my counselor calls me on Monday....tonight has been really bad......thoughts i havent had in years have been fighting thoughts that are hard to get out of my mind.

I am taking strong meds for physical pain, but yet i am in so much pain some days that I can barely function.....I just donel know what to do.... I am so connfused, tired and just plain exhausted.