Thanks for the replies. I definitely don't have an eating disorder - I usually eat quite normally and healthily. I have other health concerns so I wouldn't want to stop eating and make myself worse.

It's just that when I feel bad it all goes to pot. It's as if I don't care, I want to make myself suffer. I'm relatively thin for my height but this is connected to other health issues. I have lost weight this week, but not drastically.

I don't really have a good support system unfortunately I'm very isolated and I don't have much family or see a lot of friends. I have a good T though and she has been great lately.

Hopefully I'll get through this patch. I'm guessing the not eating is most likely connected to depression and feeling bad about myself then. Thanks for writing supportive replies.