Survivalism of self hate
Got me to this present date
Empty and void, all feeling's raped
Motivational speaking, not my fate
A terminal nihilism addiction
Self depriving in contradiction
Lost of all hopes and dreams
Down a hole of darkened screams
Pain so real it is physical
To the world wounds are invisible
Self destructive and hysterical
That i haven't killed myself yet is a miracle

How do i battle self hate?
that is the question i have asked myself over an over