well folks I have made it one year and 2 months but when the urges hit they hit so I decided to come back and read some positive ways to control my very present urges today and thought others would like to read some positive ways to handle their urges too. I was also on the phone last night. and the timing of that phone call could not have been better because unbeknowst to the person who called I was dangeriously close to losing my one year 2 month record. I told the caller how to find this site and how to find me. So dear "sister in law" so to speak Thank you so much for reaching out to me last night. Healing can happen for ourselves and our loved ones. and together we will win this battle. Love you all.