Oh yes - it's been a major underlying feeling for months now. When my T got annoyed with me last year, we did talk about it later. See, she never said anything at the moment and it didn't register consciously in my brain that she was annoyed at the moment either.

Only later did I interpret her expression as annoyance. I called her on it a few weeks later and she admitted it. She also explained it and I was feeling better about it. It would seem that it was resolved.

But my brain still could not shake the experience and one year later I gave her a poem that expressed my feelings at that moment. Even though it's a year later and we've been doing some good work this past year, I know that we'll still have to discuss that moment again of her annoyance.

The thing is - it's my issue. I know it's my issue, not hers. And it ties in to my deep fear of 'getting into trouble'. So exploring more my reaction to 'getting into trouble' with her will be therapeutic - even a year later.