Reading everyone's posts has been very helpful for me. Thanks for sharing.

I'm just gonna vent something related rather than starting another thread...

I am pretty sure T was irritated or frustrated or both with my at the end of our last session. She was very curt the last few minutes of t and it was not at all how we usually end. I wasn't really sure why. Then I added fuel to the fire at the very last minute when I said I stopped my light therapy...and did not have time to fully explain my reasoning. There just had not been opportunity to talk about it before that and I thought she should know. Should have kept my big mouth shut.

As she filled out my appt card, I mentioned something about the rest of the staff in my office having gone out for beers that afternoon but I had been left behind because I had to come to t...and her response was "So now you have to drink before you come see me?" The whole ending was very confusing for me. Then to top it all off I hadn't paid when I arrived and the reception desk was closed at the end. So she had to take my payment and asked if I paid $xxx. I pay $20 less than that. Now I am also worried I am paying the wrong amount! I was almost whispering when I left because I had no idea how to react to all this.

I've been working really hard since then and broke through some walls. I've been trying to focus on how good that felt and ignore what happened at the end of session. I really want to talk about the work when we meet on Wednesday, but I also have this lurking feeling that the ending of last session needs to be discussed first. If I don't bring it up, I am fairly sure she will. I wrote out my thoughts about the work in between sessions and I can always leave that for her to read later, I guess.