I've never taken authority at face value. Just because someone is in charge, it doesn't mean they know what they are doing. People are ruining the world with their greed, powerlust, & hypocrisy without even a tinge of good reason: It is just because they can. It's irritating because it has always affected me.
I'm part Egyptian, I dress alternatively, I believe unorthodox spiritual beliefs, I've always lived in poverty... People who are incompetent, bigoted assholes have always had the upperhand & for no good ****ing reason. I'm bright & I've had to 'learn' from people who don't know their foot from their ***. I'm open minded in a world that has blinders on.
I used to want to make a difference just because I think I would make a better authority figure, but ultimately, I would just become one of them. Once I have money & my own means, perhaps I can escape everyone else's society so I can live in peace. Comfortably. Maybe I'll write a book, but so many books have been written & disregarded. The pen is not mightier than the sword...