Neurontin, ditto on everything Lynn P. said.
My father is a jerk, when I visit, to help him with my mom, have to walk on egg shells. So sickening I loose weight. It is overwhelming, I want to go hide, am a loner too, so completely underatand.
Your not being negative, just honest, nothing wrong with that. It helps to get these things off your chest & get some support, so vent away!!
Sorry you're not feeling well today, hopefully when you get some alone time you'll feel better.

Sending peaceful thoughts your way.