Okay, I sent the email, and of course I will regret it, but you can't take them back! I know that she won't read it until Monday because she keeps her family time sacred, as she should. At least this should take my mind off of the triggered memories I have been dealing with.

I don't think I mentioned that avoidance has always been my defense system throughout my life. My t says it has served me well, but I do need to deal with my past. Perna, you are right with your analogy on the bleeding.

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